k.A.w.A.N

20 May 2009- 9pm

Ya Allah
By the passing of the night and the coming of the day light, this is the humble voice, performs hopes and prayers as your servants.
Ya Allah, the most Gracious and the most Mercifull
Please forgive us for all our sins, make easy for our tongues to engage in remembering and altering of your beautiful name and our given hearts to offer our thankfullness of your plentifull blessings of helps and strenghts to our bodies and souls to carry out our duties to obey Your commands succesfully
Ya Allah,
Please open us Ad-din, the right and the perfect way of life. Save us from your roughs and calamities through our lifes till death.

Today, I went hang out with my greatest and loving best girl friends ever!! We went bowl in Alamanda. This time, Nadia was around since she was just finished taking her final exam, (she’s in Nursing course). Everyone was there except for Malyanah, Ibtisam n Nedah. Well, Mal n Ib got classes on that day (darned short sem,hahaha) while nedah has lost in action ; she didn’t reply my messages. We rendezvous at Nadia’s house, since Nadia fetched others to her house first, later I drove them to Alamanda. Though, these girls actually have their own driving licence, but I guess they are afraid to drive one.It always me who take on the wheel .well girls, bile lagi korang drive? Takkan asyik aku je nk jadi driver korang, bile korang nak bawa aku lak?? So, about 1.20 pm we arrived. The parking lot was empty (this is why i love hanging out during weekdays) which an ease for me to park anywhere I want. First place we head up was the Burger King. Yep3 hungry we were! Oh, but before that, we performed zohor prayer first then digging the delicacies. Frankly, I personally prefer McD than BK, though their burgers are in king size, but it’s taste doesn’t fit the buds. Tapi sebab makan dengan kwn2, sumer jadi best! Mase makan, posing adelah subjek utama. Haha, once camera begins to snap, we couldn’t stop making funny and hilarious faces in front of the lense. Memang riuh satu BK. We were pretty sure everyone else around got annoyed with our ‘happy-hour’, but we didn’t really care about what others were thinking- “ee,bisingnyer budak2 ni”-“ish3, budak2 pempuan ni”-“kedai ni diorang yang punye ke”…hahaha,.lantak korang la.janji kitorang yang bahagia. Afterwards, kaki kitorang berjalan menuju ke tempat bowl. Hoho, naseb baik tak ramai orang juge. Kitorang dapat lane yg 5-6, memule mintak hujung, tapi org tu kate tuk budak2 praktis bowl. Ok-fine. So,kitorang pon main ley dengan riuh nyer, again conquer kebisingan bowl alamanda nih. Kitorang je yg gelak2, jerit2 sbb strike.hahaha.n then, mase tengah2 kepoh tu, ade la sorang budak pempuan, about 11-13 years old kot (xde la plak aku pergi tnyer umur budak tuh =P) die main kat sebelah lane kitorang and she’s like wakil negara kot. Every time she threw, she strikes them all. Dasyat seyh minah nih. N kitorang pun macam malu la jugek,sebab asyik masuk longkang je. Afiqah went “dik,nak berguru ley?”…~naah~kidding.but we were amazed by her excellent skill in rolling the ball. N again,group haida menang lagi. Ala,differ in one point only la,,whats the biggie…LOL~ farah la paling tinggi markah die..ni mesti praktis kat umah nih.hoho. We played two games since mmg tujuan datang sini tuk main bowl semate-mate. After two games, tangan kitorang cam da sakit2.hahaha. then, nadia went for grocery shop with afiqah,haida plak pergi KFC for homies. N we went home sharp at 4.30pm sebab duk kejar masa, mak nadia nak balik rumah takde kunci.hahah,lawak pon ade.Kat umah nad, kitorang solat asar. Tah dari mana aku dapat idea nak berjalan lagi, tak puas weehh,,main bowling kejap gile, makan kejap gil~salu kitorang makan n lepak2 kt kedai makan about almost 3hours.haha,memang kedai tu kitorang yang punye. So, kitorang pon pergi la Tasek Chempaka. Nadia tak ikot~Ingat nk jalan2 beli aiskrim, orang jual aiskrim pergi jual tempat lain pulak by the time kitorang sampai-hampes punye pakcik aiskrem. Haida got her fantastic idea. Bergambar. Wawawawawa. That’s our specialty though. So, my 2.0megapix was hired. Owh, farah’s as well. Kt TC bergambar sakan as if we’ve never been to TC before.haha. the weather that day was very2 B-E-Atiful I tell ya’. All pictures were gorgeous and cute plus the photogenic-ness of us.OMG, those pictures memang mengalahkan american’s next top model.kah3. if only everyone’s here, that would be PERFECT!!
we heading back home about 7pm.haaa,,da lame tak gelak n senyum macam hari nih.N hanye kawan2 ni yang mampu buat aku tergelak n tersenyum cam orang gile.hahaha.Sayang yang amat kepada mereka!!n FYI, these girls are my friends since we were in standard one back in primary school!!NO one could ever replace their marvelous existence in my life!!

26 April 2009-28 april 2009
Kem Jalinan Hati (KEJati),Gunung Angsi, Negeri Sembilan.

With the name of Allah,the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful.

26Apr. That morning agak berat nk gerak dari rumah, sbb letih yang hari2 lepas tak habis lagi(angkut barang dari kolej,kemas rumah,basuh kereta abg). Sampai kat KMR tu,kawan2 lain punya beg kecik2 je.haha,mine is slightly bigger than them.huhu(biasalah,perempuan..^_^). n FYI majority budak Asper semua nya, sorg je budak KejoT which is Tom (i dunno whats his real name)..but he is Amalina’s classmate. pusing2 pun kwn2 kite jugek.n like usual sisters conquer the majority compared to brothers.haha. Bertolak dari UPM pukul 9.30am,one hour late. Never mind, sampai sane about 11am kot.(tah la, aku cam mamai2 baru bangun tidur,,^_^)haha. So,together we packed in our stuff to the gazebo in that camp.(gazebo is the place where u do the cooking and eating). Afterwards, we set up our tents at the camp site. Penempatan dan kedudukan tent lelaki dan perempuan adalah sgt penting di sini kerana, lelaki dan perempuan adalah berbeda….(menurut abg fuad).hahaha. Pastu masak,makan n solat zohor. Ade la sesi ice breaking conducted by Tikah. After Asar, sisters were allowed to mandi manda di sungai meanwhile the brothers handle the dinner. Malam tu ade LDk n dibenarkan tidur awal, sebab tomorrow morning ade qiam.

27Apr.Qiam that morning, the brothers were a little bit late, so qiam agak sedikit lewat-almost nk masuk subuh. takpelah,mereka keletihan sbb shift berjaga malam tuk sentry. terima kaseh byk2 brothers. That morning after breakfast, we were so energetic n enthusiastic. Kembara Gunung Angsi would be started sooner. About 8.40am, group 1st started their journey first.Luckily, nisa, jida, azyan and me were in the same group. Perjalanan ke atas puncak memakan mase approximately 6hours. So, we arrived at the top of the mountain about 1pm. Fuh, seriously penat giler. Memanjat setiap akar2 pokok, jage steps, ducked under huge enormous stones, crossing river,etc. Kat atas tu, aku da macam org takde tulang, lembik giler!letih giler. Tapi ape2 hal,posing tetap posing. Sakan bergambar atas tu. Sambil2 menikmati keindahan alam ciptaan Allah di puncak gunung setinggi 825m ni, ade pulak coverage phone.maxis n celcom. Wahwah, aku pon ape lagi, call la Mummy and Daddy. They were pretty amazed that I could reached them by phone at the peak of the mountain. Zohor pun tibe, Wuduk yang diambil 2jam lalu masih maintain,org lain yg da takde tu kene tayamum dgn debu pasir, so di atas tu jugek la kami solat beramai2. Mase tahiyat akhir, air hujan mulai turun.Sempat lagi, lepas solat tu, Abg Fuad bagi KUTiM (Kuliah Tiga Minit). Allah memberi hujan rahmat kepada kami krn berjaya sampai ke atas, berjaya tempuhi segala cabaran mase mendaki, n berjaya juge mengembara menikmati alam ciptaan Yang Maha Esa. Kami turun semula approximately 2pm, n mase tu, kat langit dah pun gelap. Hujan makin kuat. Part yang paling menakutkan adelah mase turun dekat satu curam yang 90° agaknye. Hanye ade tali je yang membantu. Safety pads like elbow pad o knee pad sumer takde. I was sort of frighten n didn’t have any confident tuk turun dengan selamat nye, I even thought of going to slide down. Tapi dgn arahan abg Fuad mmg berkesan, aku landing ngan selamat.(Thnx abg Fuad,caya lah sama Bro..^_^) n mase part tu jugek la hujan makin lebat. Baju, seluar, kasut, beg,..sumer basah. Henset2 aku pun masuk air ( nasib baik masih sihat ), ade camera n henset kwn2 lain da takley on terus. Kasihan mereka, ape lagi, rezeki henset baru le tuh..huhu.Perjalanan turun actually lagi susa dr naik,sbb u have to use almost all of ur strength to break n slow down. Ade gak la tempat2 licin aku tergolek a few times. Balik dalam hujan ni pulak, consequence yang ade adelah, pacat will get all over u. i was so careful n cautious not to let any pacat got onto me. Still there was one time, I noticed a pacat tgh berjalan atas kasut aku mase tgh bukak kasut tuk amek wuduk, haha,,teros terkejot, minta Tikon tolong buangkan.(it turns out that pacat gigit/lekat kat jari Tikon,huhu,n at last Ku jugek yang buangkan,tq everyone,korg menyelamatkan nyawaku,-erk,yep2,aku takot pacat ni). Solat asar jugek bersujudkan dedaunan kering di dalam hutan ini. Alhamdulillah mase solat tu,xde pacat naik atas aku.hukhuk. We arrived at our camp site about 6.30pm. Balik tu terus menghala ke toilet membersihkan diri. Dah bersih2 tu, tetibe Yan tegur, ”alya,kaki ko berdarah”….erk,,WHAT????huhu,ade jugek pacat yang berjaye meyedut hak asasi aku.takpe2,rezeki kamoo ye pacat. That night, i wasn’t feeling very well,my lungs-it hurts. I felt really hard to breath. I stayed in my tent that night and didn’t go to the LDk..=(.

28Apr. I tried to reply as many wishes msgs as I could. That morning, we had maggi for breakfast,~waaahh,sakit perot ma~.tapi sedap magginyer.hihi. At 9am, ade ceramah from this professor from UPM, turns out that he was daddy’s junior back in SAS. What a small world. Mase ceramah tu, ala~biasalah ngantuk,sejam yang pertama dan terakhir je segar. Tgh2 tu tak tahu hilang ke mana.(^_^”). Later, lunch n bersiap tuk pulang. Mase sesi Resolusi, kwn2 nyanyikan lagu bday,huhu,terharu. On the way balik ke UPM, lansung tak sedarkan diri,nyenyak giler tidur,keletihan. Sampai2 kat gate K13, Abg Zidni dah pun sampai. Yeah,takyah tunggu lelame nk balik. At last, home sweet home!!! This camping mmg syok giler even though memenatkan, mmg byk bg manfaat n knowlegdes bagi men-topupkan lg ilmu agamaku yang cetek ini.hukhuk. Alhamdulillah, sgt bersyukur terpilih pergi kem nih. Thanks to everyone!

hAppens really Fast, last Forever

24th April 2009
With the name of Allah,The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful…
Peace upon u~to all..

Yep. It has been along pause since the last blog. I thought I had myself cease from blogging. Nope. Its was the ‘time’ that always envied my keen and eagerness in expressing my thought and ideas. It is the semester break already. Everything happens really fast: registering courses, adaptation, test one,,test two, laboratory practicals every week, reports, assignments and final exams. Despite that all of these making me tired, however they gave me lots of experiences and indeed thought me on how to manage my “kesabaran dan ketabahan”. Jida always tells me that I am such a lucky person to be tested with His ujian-ujian which then made me went gobsmacked…\(^_^)/..i am such a lucky person!!..huhu..
feel so good to be back home!!Home sweeett homeee!!!my home is my heaven!! hurm,,still..1st semester in undergraduate period was really tough(ya right alya, baru first sem,tough konon..hahaha).By the way, my course is said to be one of the tough course among others..(erkk,,yeker?…im dead meat!)..
haha..among fellows of fostech, there are only 8 malay guys n 1 indian guy and the rest are dominated by chinese whilst among ladies, slightly balance between malays n non. Well whatever it is, it was a sweet memories. Though there were days that we went through were quite stressful and strain but we had fun \(^_^)/.the bonding of friends could never be compared to other stuff o change with money. abg muzani was right, life in college cannot be compared to life in school. yep3. It’s different. haha. hurm,for exam result…erkk,i think its better for me to not-to think bout it first. (cuz i know i didnt do so-well in previous tests…haha) let us enjoy our long term hhhhhoooooooooooooooolidaaaaaaaaay first!!
happy holidays my friends!

Fighting!!

Assalamualaikum wbt.
salam aidilfitri.maaf zahir batin
10 October 2008. 8.52am

It has been a long time since the last blog I wrote. Well,this 3rd sem has really keeping me busy with assignments ,presentations and examinations . However, I was really having fun with all the Asperian, up until now. The 3rd sem will end sooner or later and to think about that, I got nothing in my head-imagining about how’s life in the first year, how’s life without friends in Asper. One and a half year has given me a lot of sweet memories. In one and a half year, I have learned so many new things whether it‘s from lecturers or friends (usually from friends of course=P). One and a half year seem to pass really slowly ~ as I enjoyed every each of the second in Asasi. It’s really mean a lot to me, way meaningful than I had back in Seseri. (hahaha). So, i guess everyone in asasi has pass up their degree form yesterday. Everyone will go in different direction later on.Well,guys, have fun in gaining knowledge in your 1st year. Keep up the good work!Aja2 fighting!!!
Anyway, talking about schools- I’ve watched this one Japanese drama entitled “my boss my hero”. It was REALLY-SERIOUSLY the best Japanese drama. It was tacky and damn hilarious!!~ there was parts that I laughed a lot (sampai kat luar bilik pun boleh dengar,,hahahaha)-funny lol and some parts that really touching my heart..burst to tears some more~hukhuk. And I learned something for this story~ friends give a lot of impact in one’s life. Sad, happiness, excitement, confusing, feeling down, loathing…etc. Friend is the 2ndimportant person after family. Thanks a trillion to people who enroll as friends to me.
Huhu. Lets watch this drama over and over again.
The series is mainly about a 27 year old man named Makio Sakaki. His purpose is to become a successor after his father. However, he must pass high school first in order to prove himself worthy in the family for if he fails, his younger brother will take over, instead of him. Through the school years, he faces many obstacles such as righteousness, friendship, and perhaps even love.

3rd sem in Asper

4th July 2008
oh MY Lord“O my Dear Allah, make my love for You the most beloved thing to me, and my fear for You the most fearful thing to me, and remove from me all worldly needs and wants by instilling a passion for meeting You, and when You have given the people of the world the pleasures of their world, make the coolness of my eyes (pleasure) in worshipping You.” Ameen~

Assalamualaikum..wbt..

As the day goes by, its already the end of the semester’s break. Next week i’ll be going to kuliah like usual.Facing the same routines everyday~so boring, like what i have done for the last two semesters.The first semester was a little hard,maybe due to culture-shock and my premature-thinking.(haha). But then i learned that all of those things had effected my results. Even though my parents said it was ok, but still for me it was not. and so, during the second semester, i threw out some bad-behaviors for the sake of my studies, like texting people, going on shopping ,sleeping during the evening ,last-minute study..etc. i worked a little hard during this 2nd sem ,though that i had been part away from my beloved nisa-jida-yan. Even so, that had made me pushed myself to struggle even more to get good-grades and the most important :to make my parents proud of it. ,Alhamdulillah, i was quite satisfied for what i have achieved but that does not mean that its all-that. Mom and Dad told me to stay-maintain at the stage and do not fall. YES! i will mommy,daddy..^_^, indeed i’ll work 5 times harder..(because i’ the fifth in the family..hihi)Honestly,for me, it was quite-a little hard living through these days as daddy is working so-far-away, demi mencari rezeki untuk kami anak beranak. Dad has been transfered to UDM,Terengganu. Anyhow, thank to Allah up above that it was terengganu, our own sweet-home-town. The kampong where daddy grew up healthily and happily. Indeed, he was promoted to be the vice-dean in one of the faculty in that universiti. It was a relief to know that daddy is enjoying himself there after i went through his page. I felt really2 truly sorry for mom and dad that they have to be apart like this as for the sake of the family. (owh, i wish they do not have to separate like this…. how i wish…). Frankly, i burst to tears-a lot, whilst i was reading his page, i missed daddy very much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)Well, since he’s enjoying himself with his friends back in UDM, i am happy for him. and i constantly prayed that ALLAH will protect him from sins and dangers-may you always be blessed. Amin~
To one of my father’s friend : Dr Abdullah in UDM as well….please take a VERY GOOD CARE of my FATHER. I love him more than i love myself!.
MOM and DAD, i love both of you very much.even words could not describe how much i love both of you.

something to erase

19th July 2008
“Kenapa aku mendapat ujian seberat ini??”“Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannnya”-al-Baqarah:286

1.20am.
I was watching some Korean dramas in the middle of the night. While waiting for the video to buffering, my mind came across about something-if there was anything on youtube about my school-seseri. and so, I typed on the search- “seseri”. and surprisingly, there were a lot of them.One of them was made by my ex-batch mate. She was in the top-ranking class though. Its easy to say that she was excellent in everything, including sports and extra curriculum. The other videos were majority from the juniors, appreciating their life in Seseri as well.Well, I was wondering, why didn’t I have those feeling?-the feeling of fondness towards the school. To be honest, my school time, especially during the upper form in Seseri, I wasn’t really having a good-sweet time there. It was one of the worst memories I have ever had. And indirectly affected my study and my spm result. That’s why I had some regret ness about deciding to continue my study in Seseri one time ago, while I left my favourite school in Bangi. If only time can be turned back to the past. But it wont.Anyhow, I must not think this way towards the school. But I cant help it.Now that I already entering the college I felt relief that my school time is over. While most of the people say that their ‘school-hood’ were the greatest time ever-and I did not. I am so happy that I feel so ease-and-happy during college time. Yeay! I am grateful for what I have today.I went to bed afterward because it was 2 in the morning. It was kind of funny to say that I even had a dream about my school. In the dream, everything was turn out to be different from the reality. Well, I guess that’s why it has been called ‘dream’.
Ha~ having a laptop in the room its quite convenient, although the internet streaming is slightly slow sometimes because almost each of the room in the house having laptop. Haha. Sometimes we even named it as cyber café.“Sesungguhnya manusia yang merancang, Allah yang menentukan”…

Daddy,daddy,miss u a lot...

“Kepada siapa aku mengharap??”….“Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain dariNya.Hanya kepada Nya aku bertawakkal”.-at-taubat:129

Assalamualaikum wbt to all…

Jida overnight at my house before going back to college tomorrow, because she coincidently bumped into the College13 principal when she arrived in front of the college gate. And guess what, the principal did not allow her to enter the college. How suck was that~After dinner, I decided to call daddy since I’m going back to college tomorrow, well just to tell him that I occupants the Zuhal’s block again with Jida and Nisa. Unfortunately, Yan is placed downstairs.
Daddy asked about the KPM 1k scholar and my healthiness. My voice was kind of “serak” due to coughing a lot. And indirectly it has covered my feelings which I was this close to burst to some tears. Daddy is coming back on Thursday before the ‘Majlis Aqiqah Afiefa’ started. Prayed for his safe journey. Amin
9 July 08.9.30pm.It was the 3rd day, and Alhamdullillah everything has been doing good. I had a nice day and did concentrate in the classes. except for math!! I could not understand what he’s trying to explain. I could not even stop staring at his shining head. Huhu, I begin to worry about the classes ahead. Ya Allah,, please help me understand him so that I could understand math!

English class

19th July 2008
“Rasa frust??”“Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah dan janganlah kamu bersedih hati padahal kamulah orang-orang yang paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu orang-orang yang beriman..”-al-Imran:139

Assalamualaikum.wbt to all..
NERD???? Swot??? Approachable..
On the first day of the third semester, there was an English class at the end of the day. On my way to the class. I found out that Miss Hasliza will not be our English lecturer any longer. I expected a new lecturer then.When I entered the lecture hall, she was already inside waiting for us. Since it was her first day with us, we started the class with some ice breaking. During the introduction she wanted to know what is a characteristic or special trade of ourselves, so that she could easily remember each of us.Well, it was hard to decide what I am. My friend, Jida told me to say about my addiction to Korean dramas. That is so true. I really- really love watching Korean dramas. Instead of saying those, I bluff out saying that I’m a NERD!!What makes me said that? Why would I said that? I didn’t know myself either. But one thing that I’m sure was that I really-truly regret for saying those. I was actually mixing up the word “nerd” and “swot”. I was supposed to say that I’m a swot. Not nerd. I’m pretty sure that all my classmates must have laughing at me. I don’t look like I’m a nerd-at all. Indeed I admit it. I’m more to a happy-go-lucky person. Haha. How I wish I could turn the time back.Swot = a person who study very hard, especially preparing for examination. They study extremely hard and not interested in other things.
Days go by but I still had my mind on the day that I admit that I am a nerd. It was really hilarious though. One day I run through a dictionary and saw a word “approachable”.Yes! That’s it! I am that! Yeay, finally I found the right one (maybe at the moment)

Weekend..having rest

20 July 2008
“Bagaimana harus aku menghadapinya???”“Wahai orang-orang yang beriman!bersabarlah kamu ( menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan ), dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh di medan perjuangan ,dan bersedialah ( dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah-daerah sempadan ) serta bertaqwalah kamu kepada Allah supaya kamu berjaya ( mencapai kemenangan )- al-imran : 200
“Dan mintalah pertolongan ( kepada Allah ) dengan jalan yang sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang ; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk” - al-Baqarah : 45

Assalamualaikum..wbt to all.It’s already two weeks since the 3rd semester started.and like always I will go home during the weekend (because there’s no place like home…^_^,and my home is my heaven,huhu). I managed to ask daddy some “chemical problems”.He’s the best chemistry teacher ever~and i hope his students in UDM think so as well. In Asper,my chemist lecturer,Puan Syah happened to be my daddy’s ex-student while he was still in ukm.So,i guess their way of thinking about chemist is basically the same.haha.Puan Syah is very cute though. She always making jokes in her class so that we won’t feel boring and sleepy~ and her test/exam’s questions are very tough.Well,like my dad always say, chemist is very difficult.and he discourage me to learn any chemist courses during my first year.(but i wonder why my dad had taken those?he’s a chemist lecturer though he is discouraging me..i think a genius like him could only take chem as his major..)While I was ‘lepak2′ in his room,(we kindda discuss about my plan for first year), adek suddenly came in and join us.He was the youngest in the family and he’s 8.and the topic change to adek’s future.Daddy is worry about him.He said that adek is slightly differ from the rest of us.I asked why and he claimed that adek is the pampered-youngest one.He can’t stand on his own without mum and dad. but now mum and dad are getting lots of grey hair and don’t know what will happen soon. I came to ponder for what dad has said.he’s right. Indeed,adek is someone that i need to care in the future.He’s different from us.yep3..insyaAllah i’ll take a very good care of him in the future..

Sweet 19

2nd May 2008
salam..well,,i juz celebrating my 19th birthday a few days ago..eventhough it wasnt dat ‘grand’,but i was really excited,happy,and grateful..on saturday evening,evryone was around,,well..excluded abglong,cos he’s in UK..n abg muzani.he’s workinganyway.,dad,mum and me together cutting down the slices..(it wasnt really our ‘way’ to do that,,but sis insist me,,hehe)..so-many people wished me..even the person dat i nver tot guing to do so,,countless..haha..thanks to evryone who did so,,i love u all..hehe
owhh.speaking of love..my loved one,,dad n mum..they gave me a car!!!!wow!!!this is the coolest besday present ever~~~..*erkk,,the car isnt here yet..but,the thing is they decided to let me have one..to drive in campus..yeay!!!bestnyer!!!i love them very much!!!
mum,dad..tq very much!

Ayahanda dan Bonda

12th June 2007

With the name of Allah,the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful.
Assalamulaikum wbt.

Terlebih dahulu,sepuluh jari kususun dan kupohon jutaan kemaafan buat ayahbonda tercinta dan tersayang.Pada saat ini,terlalu banyak kesalahan anakmu ini sehingga tidak terkira bilangannya.Terasa besarnya dosaku,namun sesungguhnya keikhlasan dariku iaitu bukan niatku jua untuk berbuat demikian.

Ayahanda,di saat aku dilahirkan,laungan iqamat berkumandang di telingaku oleh lunak suara ayahanda.Dari mulaku membuka kelopak mataku melihat dunia ciptaan Allah,dan meniti hari demi hari,lalu aku membesar.Saat terus berlalu,membuai arus,dan kuturuti rentak kehidupan.Mulanya,aku diajar akan kalimah-kalimah suci Allah, Bismillahirahmanirahim..seterusnya,anggotaku kian cerdas memijak bumi,.merangkak,.diikuti dengan ‘jalan tatih’ dan akhirnya sempurna lari dan jalan hidupku.Dikau memimpinku,setiap kali kukecundang.Dikau melindungiku sepanjang kecilku.Betapa besar dan agungnya jasamu,sebagai seorang ketua keluarga,memikul tanggungjawab seorang suami soleh serta ayah mithali.Penat dan lelahmu mencari nafkah buat kami sekeluarga,membanting tulang siang dan malam.Keranamu ayah,daku di sini.Membesar dan mengenali dunia fana’ yang penuh pancaroba.Ya Allah,aku menadah kedua tapak tanganku melafazkan setinggi-tinggi kesyukuran kerana dikurniakan seorang ayah yang begitu sempurna.Semasa kecilku,kanak-kanak ini degil dan nakal.Segala kata-katamu bagaikan mencurahkan air ke daun keladi.Sungguhpun begitu,sering berlegar-legar di benak enigmaku,kenapa diriku ini selalu dimarahi..?ketika itu aku tidak mampu berfikir baik dan buruknya..dan di kala inilah segala persoalan terjawab iaitu segala kerasionalnya dibicarakan semula dalam diriku bersendirian.Ayah,maafkan diriku,kerana kejahilanku yang menguris hatimu sewaktu kecilku dulu,maafkan aku untuk segala yang membuatkan perasaanmu tersinggung.Bukan niatku untuk menyakiti hatimu.Dari hujung rambut kepalaku sehingga hujung jari kakiku,daku memohon berjuta keampunan darimu.Anakmu sentiasa memerlukan tunjuk ajar darimu.Sesungguhnya,yang buruk itu datang dari diriku dan yang baik itu datang dari Allah.S.W.T.Anakmu berjanji akan sentiasa mendoakan dirimu agar sentiasa berada di bawah payung keberkatan Allah.Tika kali mataku bersua dengan mata ayah,tergambar beribu keletihan dan kelesuan.Namun,riakmu masih segar bugar tanpa kenal erti lelah.Kasihmu tercurah tanpa henti walau sezarah.Tanpa jemu,ayah masih gagah mengukir senyuman di kala awan mendung manyapa.Ayahanda,dikaulah penggerak seisi warga sebumbung.Terima kasih ayah.Jasamu kuhargai dan sesungguhnya hanya Allah yang mampu membalasnya.
Demikianlah,kasih seorang bapa yang tegar dan bersinar.Namun,tidak juga lengkap tanpa pasangnya..Bonda,dikaulah ratu hatiku.
Bonda,9 bulan kudibawa mengikutimu kemana jua bonda melangkah walau di kutub utara mahu pun puncak everest,anakmu ini sentiasa berada dalam kantungmu.Selama 9 bulan kita tidak dipisahkan.Seksanya dirimu menanggung selama itu dengan deria yang lara,cabaran dan dugaan yang datang menyapa,namun diriku dalam dirimu,masih dijaga dan dipelihara.Dunia..tidaklah seburuk mana,namun tidak juga seindah kata.Dunia hanyalah pelabuhan,persinggahan buat kita hamba Allah,untuk mengumpul amalan buat hari Qiamat kelak.Satu hari,hambu-Mu ini pasti akan kembali jua.Sepanjang hidupku ini,aku dijaga dengan penuh kasih dikau curahkan,seperti menatang minyak yang penuh.Bonda,ucapan jutaan terima kasih daku hulurkan padamu kerana melahirkan daku.Dikaulah insan pertama yang aku kenali..mangajar dan mendidikku adalah tugasmu yang dikau ikhtiarkan dengan penuh keikhlasan.Dari kecil hingga kini,dikau menabur ilmu padaku erti kasih,sayang dan cinta kepada-Nya Yang Esa.Bonda,pahit manis kehidupan telah dikau rasai,namun dirimu tidak pernah jemu.Dikau hadiahkan aku sebuah kebahagiaan sehingga kau lontar semua derita.Jauh di sudut hatimu,kuntum senyuman manismu,tak lekang diukir dibibirmu kerana dirimu tahu anaklah penyeri kehidupan.Bonda,kupohonkan restu darimu,agar hidupku ini diberkati-Nya selalu,kerana diriku tahu dan terang-terangan termaktub dalam kitab suci Al-Quran,sesungguhnya syurga itu di bawah tapak kakimu. Ternyata,betapa tingginya darjatmu di sisi Allah.Bonda,maafkan anakmu ini.Kucupanmu menggegarkan fuadku.Harum wangian salammu untukku agar diri ini berjaya kelak.Bonda,tabahnya dirimu mangharungi dunia ini,setabah hati fatimah Azzahara.Ya Allah,Kau tabahkanlah hatiku ini,sebagaimana Kau tabahkan hati ibuku.Kau kasihanlah ibuku,sebagaimana ibuku mengasihaniku sejak aku kecil lagi.Bonda,dikaulah juga penawar apabilaku terlupa dan kaulah permata yang berharga bagi diriku.Kaulah ratu hatiku.Tiada bandingan di antara wanita-wanita lain di dunia ini.Dikaulah segalanya bagiku,membuatkan cintaku padamu sentiasa kukuh dan terpatri di hatiku kerana tiada cinta lain sesuci cinta seorang ibu kepada anaknya.Melalui warkah usang ini,ingin aku titipkan dengan permintaan sejuta kemaafan buatku,kerana sering menyakiti hatimu tanpa aku sedari.Maafkan anakmu ini,kerana lidah ini sering tergigit..mintaku berlebihan dan rajukku berpanjangan.Namun,hakikatnya sekali hatimu terguris,sejuta kali hati ini terhimpit.Dan di saat itu juga aku kembali memuhasabahkan diriku.Aku lalai.Aku lupa.Aku jahil.Ah,betapa lemah dan goyahnya imanku.Ya Allah,bantunilah hamba-Mu ini.Bonda tidak pernah jemu dalam mendidik kesemua anak-anakmu ini,seperti ayahanda juga,dirimu masih kudrat mengukir senyuman.Dirimu yang sentiasa memberi makan,minum dan pakai kami anak-anakmu.. tidak pernah dikau abaikan.Perpisahanku denganmu sehari bagiku ianya bagaikan setahun.Walau sehari tidak melihat wajah tabahmu itu,aku bagaikan kehilangan tanpa arah.Dorongan dan nasihatmu itu pengukuh dan penyokong aku,untuk aku terus bangun walau telah beberapa kali aku jatuh kecundang.Terima kasih bonda..buat semuanya yang telah dikau curahkan.Janjiku,..akan aku sentiasa mendoakan dirimu dan ayahanda agar selalu dirahmati dengan keberkatan Ilahi,dipanjangkan umur serta dimurahkan rezeki.InsyaAllah,akanku balas jasa ayahanda dan bonda yang yercinta.

m.E.M.O.r.Y

18th June 2007

At the moment..my friends already started their studies in the middle of May..which they have to struggle themselves to get that darn 4flat..(hahaha..)which is guing to happen to me too,sumhow…anyway,while the days passing by..i come to have the feeling of fondess towards my schools..both jalan2 and seseri..
once a upon a time..,
the sweet moments that i took for granted for 2years..
actually,,i did having fun in seseri..but.too egois to confess..(hahahhaha)…n a billion thanx to mum and dad..they have supported me since,,29 Jan 05 untill 4 December 2006… and until now..and now..and now..jus now..now..and will remain many years ahead.insyaallah,,and still there were some bitter in seseri.Life is complicated~..

afiqah's suprise sweet 18..

Apr 16, 2007, 10:17 pm

Salam~

My plan about afiqah’s suprise besday party was a success! Afiqah looked suprised..A 1\2kg blueberry cake, i bought at Bintang mart in Bangi Utama was a really2 suprise for her.(think so)..We sang a besday songfor her n ask her to blow the candle..hahaha (it was like a scene in themovie plak..)..n we ordered some meals (Mcd la pe lg) to be delivered to afiqah’s house,,unfortunately ,i have to go home early as i promised to accompany dad to KL in the evening.so after rushing back home,i performed zohor prayer n rushing back to ukm komuter station heading toBndr Tasek selatan.n slightly change train (LRT) heading to SultanSulaiman…*we decided to use public transport..since we dun have to worry for where to park the vehicle..
KL was a very2 bz city yar.,i had a very pain in my leg.,walking aroud KL..yet i didnt regret for it cos i had a great time spending it with dad.I traveled every road in the city..(i guess..hahaha)..but surely i have fun with dad.

P\s..KL ppl are NO GOOD!!..I REPEAT..NO GoOD~!They are careless n lessmannered!NO GOOD LA U PPL!!

Cukup korum..

Apr 21, 2007, 9:12 pm
Salam~
Today,i went to PKNS,meeting my best n greatest friends ever..Dis time,the whole "gaNg" were there..Haida, Afiqah, Nadia, Malyanah, Fatin, Farah,Hunaidah,Ibtisam, and me..

We went to KFC for lunch.(kali nie kami tukar selera.kalau selalu nyer Mcd jd keutamaan..dis time,ayam yg lari masuk mulut..)..we ate outside the pkns..3 tables joins only for our meals.(my gudness..our table became the havoks one among others..)
from.,2.15p m until 4 pm we were in KFC.. talking,gosipping.laughing,,making noises around there..
haha..i really miss this sweet-special time with my friends..
Luv u all gals..ukhuwahufillah .muah!!!x)

Melaka ade "London"..

May 21, 2007, 5:55 pm
Salam..
well,ijust got back from a "vacation in melaka"..only for one week.I planned to stay there for one month.But there are too many things that could make my whole one month miserable.

Sincerely, i feel quite regret because having a very short life in matriculation..my intension was to stay longer..,longer enough to make some new friends and learns omething valueable there.
My sweet and lovely roomates,sisNad,sis Sheida,and sis Iza..tell u what,my roomates were all one yearolder than me.(i feel so small..) huhuhuks..but frankly,i love them so much eventhough we known for only one week.one more thing that keeps me really2 wanted to stay there was that fatin and malyanah were thereas well.(my best friends since we were in standard 1).not forgeting my friends in seseri,joe,both amal..(hahaha,budak2 kepala gile2 sket.:P) and..a new fren of mine,ashraf.we have known each other from a fren of ours.but we just met for the first time,on my last day in matric.[to ashraf,if u r reading this..saje nk mencapap name ko..hahaha..ko kn ske mencapap.;P].tell u all a little bit bout dis guy,he’s very2 kind-hearted and nice guy.we often change +vice,and always give each other a moral support .nape die specel sgt smpai ley masuk ak nyer blog sbb,he was the one who convince me to futher my study in UPM.[thnx dude].just wanna let u guys noe,dat i’ll never forget all the good deeds from all of the ppls that i mentioned above(including my supportive parents n family)..luv u all so much~!

The question that keeps me wondering..was that,why did i choose to go to UPM. (i have no answer myself..)..[i'm going to do science-agriculture foundation there in UPM,(PASP)insyaAllah..]
and early in the morning today,my friend messaged me and told me that he got scholarship from MARA doing medicine..i was happy for him,and at the same time,i felt sad for myself which i failed to get JPA’s scholar
i guess i have to workhard in upm..damn hard!fighting alya!!

arggh,headache

Salam.

i just received some pictures from kaklong.she seems to enjoy her life with her family.At the moment,arifah do looked a lot like her mother at this age.and aidah has her father’s face.(what a life..sigh)
just edit..(arituh nak edit tak sempat…)
oh,kakngah was just annouced pregnant.and this is her 2nd child..its like a "race" between kakngah n kaklong.and one thing for sure ,the family is getting bigger. the numbers increased.
theres 3weeks left to the registeration day..aish.,suddenly i become so damn-lazy when thinking bout starting the lessons again..(otak masih beku)..but some times i came to envy to all my friends which they have started their lesson earlier then me. its like so unfair~wahahaha~well,,got to have the positive thinking yar..
get up alyani!!no more playing.~theres lots,n lots n lots of things to learn.~
oh,n since i already have a lisence..yeeppiii..can go anywhere i want.~yeah!