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oh MY Lord"O my Dear Allah, make my love for You the most beloved thing to me, and my fear for You the most fearful thing to me, and remove from me all worldly needs and wants by instilling a passion for meeting You, and when You have given the people of the world the pleasures of their world, make the coolness of my eyes (pleasure) in worshipping You." Ameen~
20 June 2009
Selalu nyer bile naik kereta, I’d be the driver. Sepanjang cuti ni, aku la yg pergi hantar and ambik adik2 sekolah,drive mum to pasar, hantar adik tuisyen, grocery shopping,etc. I get used to the driver seat n being able to control the motion of the car.But today, I sat at the pasengger seat. Ya Allah, pening yang amat,hanya Allah yang tahu. Mase masuk pintu kereta Abg Zidni dah loya2 pening. Bertambah kepeningan bile the whole peeps in the car berborak/berbincang sepanjang jalan sampai Ampang. Perjalanan pulang ke kampung ptg ni dengan kereta kawan ayoh, Dr Abdullah. Ayoh’s best pal in UDM. Anything that related to UDM, they’d consult each others opinion. Selalunya, ayoh n Dr Abdullah bergilir2 kereta balik KL during weekend. Economically saved and boleh teman memandu,takde lah mengantok mane. Rendezvous di Petronas di Ampang bout 5.30 pm. Dr Abdullah bawa anak lelaki dia juge. (ok,fine.teman ayah masing2, fathers day pon da dekat,hihi).
Ok. Perjalanan yg lagi bertambah pening when they talked along the way to Terengganu. Mase dekat highway around KL-Gombak-Karak aku tidur. Pening yg dasyat. Rase nk terkeluar isi perut pon ade,,tapi terpakse tahan since Uncle Abdullah yg drive. Bau tinggalan durian yg Uncle beli last week lagi memuak+mual kan tekak aku. Aku tutup mate, pura2 tidur. Ade sekali tu,ayoh ade cerita pasal pensyarah die, so he tried to recall the age of his lecturer, by calculating the year his lecturer got his pHd. At the same time, aku pon turut mengira dalam hati. Bile ayoh lambat beri jawapan, aku mencelah. Haha. Ayoh laughed. Tidur pon boleh mengira jugek. Hihi. Sorry, I couldn’t help my mind~it was an automatically response.(^_^). But, the dizziness keeps hunting me. Masuk LPT, dozed off. Alhamdulillah, memang tak sedar ape2. Then, berhenti makan and solat maghrib dekat Gambang. Dari situ sampai Terengganu, takley tidur. Ade sekali, dalam perjalanan, ade roadblock. Aku sempat tarik sikit seat belt sangkut kat bahu and then buat2 tidur dengan tudung tutup tangan yg tgh peluk tubuh(aku mmg hebat berlakon depan polis.hihi) Tapi ayoh punye seat sangat obvious. That policeman tanye,kenape tak pakai seat belt. I still remembered his phrases..
“Kenape ni tak pakai seat belt?kan kereta baru. Sakit ke? Encik tahu tak encik bersalah sebab tak pakai seat belt belakang?”
Mase dia cakap camtu. Aku yg tgh pura2 tidur ni terbangun, tengok die yang konon2 tgh suluh aku n later I pretended dozed off again..and he went..
“Ok,jalan2”.
And then Uncle pon jalan lah.hahaha. As if like nothing happened. See how teribble Police in Malaysia is. Saman je la teros. Yeah, I don’t mind being fine since memang salah kite. Tapi they themselves tak strict dalam menjalankan tugas and amanah negara, macam mane la Malaysia tak corrupt. Ni baru kes seat belt tak pakai. Ape entah lagi kes2 lain.Well, I hope not that police officer who makes the government goes worst.
Arrived about 10.45pm, and uncle headed to a restaurant named Aslan Restaurant, I think it’s the place where they usually stopped by, at least I think so. The name of the restaurant reminds me of one story : The Chronicles of Narnia, where there is one enormous and humongous lion named Aslan ; Same size with the guy who sat in the cashier side ( I think he’s the owner of the restaurant). Well at least I thought he was big compared to other staff that worked there. That time was exactly 11 at night, and there were so many customers enjoying their food. What wondered me was that they were wearing simply similar clothes, including the cashier! Most of them were in Jubah with serban on their top, some with kain pelekat n baju melayu, whilst the ladies were in baju kurung. And what were they doing at this kind of time? Well,back in home at that particular time, mum da suro masuk tido since esok nak sekolah. Ya’ah, tomorrow ahad, hari bekerja di Terengganu, so kenape mereka2 tak berada di rumah berehat menanti kerje esok nye?…kalau aku, dah lame selamat atas katil dekat rumah tu..hahaha. Sampai rumah Teh(aunty) about 12. sempat lagi aku cekup 2-3 cucuk sate kajang yg ayoh bawa balik dr Bangi. Then tidur.
21 Jun 2009
Bangun pagi tadi, memang amatlah indah..sebab terbangun dengar azan subuh menusuk ke telinga ; bukanlah ringtone alarm yg aku pasang dekat phone. Selesai solat subuh, baru aku mandi. Sementara tunggu ayoh bersiap, aku tidur2 ayam kejap. Ayoh dah siap tu, pergi la rumah tok. Sini la selalu tempat aku ditinggalkan bile ayoh pergi kerje(aceh,macam sedih je ayatnye,hihi). Tetiba aku teringat, anak2 sedare aku selalu juge kene tinggal macam ni bile parents diorang pergi kerje (certain days), sian mummy,=(,..kalau budak2 tak buat sepah boleh la tahan juge, ape2hal mok jugek yg kene kemas. Nak kene budak2 kecik ni.hahaha. nasib la aku tak wat sepah or tak susah kan tok kat sini (doh beso da aku ni). About zohor tu, kaklong mari. Terkejot kaklong jumpe alya kat sini. Macam la dekat Bangi tak ley jumpe. Kaklong datang dengan durian satu plastik. Aku pon join, and akhirnya, aku pening lagi. Sekarang tengah melayan FB and blog tuk reduce the pain.haha.Perhaps esok balik. InsyaAllah pagi.dan harapnyer tak pening lagi.Ameen~.

k.A.w.A.N

20 May 2009- 9pm

Ya Allah
By the passing of the night and the coming of the day light, this is the humble voice, performs hopes and prayers as your servants.
Ya Allah, the most Gracious and the most Mercifull
Please forgive us for all our sins, make easy for our tongues to engage in remembering and altering of your beautiful name and our given hearts to offer our thankfullness of your plentifull blessings of helps and strenghts to our bodies and souls to carry out our duties to obey Your commands succesfully
Ya Allah,
Please open us Ad-din, the right and the perfect way of life. Save us from your roughs and calamities through our lifes till death.

Today, I went hang out with my greatest and loving best girl friends ever!! We went bowl in Alamanda. This time, Nadia was around since she was just finished taking her final exam, (she’s in Nursing course). Everyone was there except for Malyanah, Ibtisam n Nedah. Well, Mal n Ib got classes on that day (darned short sem,hahaha) while nedah has lost in action ; she didn’t reply my messages. We rendezvous at Nadia’s house, since Nadia fetched others to her house first, later I drove them to Alamanda. Though, these girls actually have their own driving licence, but I guess they are afraid to drive one.It always me who take on the wheel .well girls, bile lagi korang drive? Takkan asyik aku je nk jadi driver korang, bile korang nak bawa aku lak?? So, about 1.20 pm we arrived. The parking lot was empty (this is why i love hanging out during weekdays) which an ease for me to park anywhere I want. First place we head up was the Burger King. Yep3 hungry we were! Oh, but before that, we performed zohor prayer first then digging the delicacies. Frankly, I personally prefer McD than BK, though their burgers are in king size, but it’s taste doesn’t fit the buds. Tapi sebab makan dengan kwn2, sumer jadi best! Mase makan, posing adelah subjek utama. Haha, once camera begins to snap, we couldn’t stop making funny and hilarious faces in front of the lense. Memang riuh satu BK. We were pretty sure everyone else around got annoyed with our ‘happy-hour’, but we didn’t really care about what others were thinking- “ee,bisingnyer budak2 ni”-“ish3, budak2 pempuan ni”-“kedai ni diorang yang punye ke”…hahaha,.lantak korang la.janji kitorang yang bahagia. Afterwards, kaki kitorang berjalan menuju ke tempat bowl. Hoho, naseb baik tak ramai orang juge. Kitorang dapat lane yg 5-6, memule mintak hujung, tapi org tu kate tuk budak2 praktis bowl. Ok-fine. So,kitorang pon main ley dengan riuh nyer, again conquer kebisingan bowl alamanda nih. Kitorang je yg gelak2, jerit2 sbb strike.hahaha.n then, mase tengah2 kepoh tu, ade la sorang budak pempuan, about 11-13 years old kot (xde la plak aku pergi tnyer umur budak tuh =P) die main kat sebelah lane kitorang and she’s like wakil negara kot. Every time she threw, she strikes them all. Dasyat seyh minah nih. N kitorang pun macam malu la jugek,sebab asyik masuk longkang je. Afiqah went “dik,nak berguru ley?”…~naah~kidding.but we were amazed by her excellent skill in rolling the ball. N again,group haida menang lagi. Ala,differ in one point only la,,whats the biggie…LOL~ farah la paling tinggi markah die..ni mesti praktis kat umah nih.hoho. We played two games since mmg tujuan datang sini tuk main bowl semate-mate. After two games, tangan kitorang cam da sakit2.hahaha. then, nadia went for grocery shop with afiqah,haida plak pergi KFC for homies. N we went home sharp at 4.30pm sebab duk kejar masa, mak nadia nak balik rumah takde kunci.hahah,lawak pon ade.Kat umah nad, kitorang solat asar. Tah dari mana aku dapat idea nak berjalan lagi, tak puas weehh,,main bowling kejap gile, makan kejap gil~salu kitorang makan n lepak2 kt kedai makan about almost 3hours.haha,memang kedai tu kitorang yang punye. So, kitorang pon pergi la Tasek Chempaka. Nadia tak ikot~Ingat nk jalan2 beli aiskrim, orang jual aiskrim pergi jual tempat lain pulak by the time kitorang sampai-hampes punye pakcik aiskrem. Haida got her fantastic idea. Bergambar. Wawawawawa. That’s our specialty though. So, my 2.0megapix was hired. Owh, farah’s as well. Kt TC bergambar sakan as if we’ve never been to TC before.haha. the weather that day was very2 B-E-Atiful I tell ya’. All pictures were gorgeous and cute plus the photogenic-ness of us.OMG, those pictures memang mengalahkan american’s next top model.kah3. if only everyone’s here, that would be PERFECT!!
we heading back home about 7pm.haaa,,da lame tak gelak n senyum macam hari nih.N hanye kawan2 ni yang mampu buat aku tergelak n tersenyum cam orang gile.hahaha.Sayang yang amat kepada mereka!!n FYI, these girls are my friends since we were in standard one back in primary school!!NO one could ever replace their marvelous existence in my life!!

26 April 2009-28 april 2009
Kem Jalinan Hati (KEJati),Gunung Angsi, Negeri Sembilan.

With the name of Allah,the Most Gracious and the Most Merciful.

26Apr. That morning agak berat nk gerak dari rumah, sbb letih yang hari2 lepas tak habis lagi(angkut barang dari kolej,kemas rumah,basuh kereta abg). Sampai kat KMR tu,kawan2 lain punya beg kecik2 je.haha,mine is slightly bigger than them.huhu(biasalah,perempuan..^_^). n FYI majority budak Asper semua nya, sorg je budak KejoT which is Tom (i dunno whats his real name)..but he is Amalina’s classmate. pusing2 pun kwn2 kite jugek.n like usual sisters conquer the majority compared to brothers.haha. Bertolak dari UPM pukul 9.30am,one hour late. Never mind, sampai sane about 11am kot.(tah la, aku cam mamai2 baru bangun tidur,,^_^)haha. So,together we packed in our stuff to the gazebo in that camp.(gazebo is the place where u do the cooking and eating). Afterwards, we set up our tents at the camp site. Penempatan dan kedudukan tent lelaki dan perempuan adalah sgt penting di sini kerana, lelaki dan perempuan adalah berbeda….(menurut abg fuad).hahaha. Pastu masak,makan n solat zohor. Ade la sesi ice breaking conducted by Tikah. After Asar, sisters were allowed to mandi manda di sungai meanwhile the brothers handle the dinner. Malam tu ade LDk n dibenarkan tidur awal, sebab tomorrow morning ade qiam.

27Apr.Qiam that morning, the brothers were a little bit late, so qiam agak sedikit lewat-almost nk masuk subuh. takpelah,mereka keletihan sbb shift berjaga malam tuk sentry. terima kaseh byk2 brothers. That morning after breakfast, we were so energetic n enthusiastic. Kembara Gunung Angsi would be started sooner. About 8.40am, group 1st started their journey first.Luckily, nisa, jida, azyan and me were in the same group. Perjalanan ke atas puncak memakan mase approximately 6hours. So, we arrived at the top of the mountain about 1pm. Fuh, seriously penat giler. Memanjat setiap akar2 pokok, jage steps, ducked under huge enormous stones, crossing river,etc. Kat atas tu, aku da macam org takde tulang, lembik giler!letih giler. Tapi ape2 hal,posing tetap posing. Sakan bergambar atas tu. Sambil2 menikmati keindahan alam ciptaan Allah di puncak gunung setinggi 825m ni, ade pulak coverage phone.maxis n celcom. Wahwah, aku pon ape lagi, call la Mummy and Daddy. They were pretty amazed that I could reached them by phone at the peak of the mountain. Zohor pun tibe, Wuduk yang diambil 2jam lalu masih maintain,org lain yg da takde tu kene tayamum dgn debu pasir, so di atas tu jugek la kami solat beramai2. Mase tahiyat akhir, air hujan mulai turun.Sempat lagi, lepas solat tu, Abg Fuad bagi KUTiM (Kuliah Tiga Minit). Allah memberi hujan rahmat kepada kami krn berjaya sampai ke atas, berjaya tempuhi segala cabaran mase mendaki, n berjaya juge mengembara menikmati alam ciptaan Yang Maha Esa. Kami turun semula approximately 2pm, n mase tu, kat langit dah pun gelap. Hujan makin kuat. Part yang paling menakutkan adelah mase turun dekat satu curam yang 90° agaknye. Hanye ade tali je yang membantu. Safety pads like elbow pad o knee pad sumer takde. I was sort of frighten n didn’t have any confident tuk turun dengan selamat nye, I even thought of going to slide down. Tapi dgn arahan abg Fuad mmg berkesan, aku landing ngan selamat.(Thnx abg Fuad,caya lah sama Bro..^_^) n mase part tu jugek la hujan makin lebat. Baju, seluar, kasut, beg,..sumer basah. Henset2 aku pun masuk air ( nasib baik masih sihat ), ade camera n henset kwn2 lain da takley on terus. Kasihan mereka, ape lagi, rezeki henset baru le tuh..huhu.Perjalanan turun actually lagi susa dr naik,sbb u have to use almost all of ur strength to break n slow down. Ade gak la tempat2 licin aku tergolek a few times. Balik dalam hujan ni pulak, consequence yang ade adelah, pacat will get all over u. i was so careful n cautious not to let any pacat got onto me. Still there was one time, I noticed a pacat tgh berjalan atas kasut aku mase tgh bukak kasut tuk amek wuduk, haha,,teros terkejot, minta Tikon tolong buangkan.(it turns out that pacat gigit/lekat kat jari Tikon,huhu,n at last Ku jugek yang buangkan,tq everyone,korg menyelamatkan nyawaku,-erk,yep2,aku takot pacat ni). Solat asar jugek bersujudkan dedaunan kering di dalam hutan ini. Alhamdulillah mase solat tu,xde pacat naik atas aku.hukhuk. We arrived at our camp site about 6.30pm. Balik tu terus menghala ke toilet membersihkan diri. Dah bersih2 tu, tetibe Yan tegur, ”alya,kaki ko berdarah”….erk,,WHAT????huhu,ade jugek pacat yang berjaye meyedut hak asasi aku.takpe2,rezeki kamoo ye pacat. That night, i wasn’t feeling very well,my lungs-it hurts. I felt really hard to breath. I stayed in my tent that night and didn’t go to the LDk..=(.

28Apr. I tried to reply as many wishes msgs as I could. That morning, we had maggi for breakfast,~waaahh,sakit perot ma~.tapi sedap magginyer.hihi. At 9am, ade ceramah from this professor from UPM, turns out that he was daddy’s junior back in SAS. What a small world. Mase ceramah tu, ala~biasalah ngantuk,sejam yang pertama dan terakhir je segar. Tgh2 tu tak tahu hilang ke mana.(^_^”). Later, lunch n bersiap tuk pulang. Mase sesi Resolusi, kwn2 nyanyikan lagu bday,huhu,terharu. On the way balik ke UPM, lansung tak sedarkan diri,nyenyak giler tidur,keletihan. Sampai2 kat gate K13, Abg Zidni dah pun sampai. Yeah,takyah tunggu lelame nk balik. At last, home sweet home!!! This camping mmg syok giler even though memenatkan, mmg byk bg manfaat n knowlegdes bagi men-topupkan lg ilmu agamaku yang cetek ini.hukhuk. Alhamdulillah, sgt bersyukur terpilih pergi kem nih. Thanks to everyone!

hAppens really Fast, last Forever

24th April 2009
With the name of Allah,The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful…
Peace upon u~to all..

Yep. It has been along pause since the last blog. I thought I had myself cease from blogging. Nope. Its was the ‘time’ that always envied my keen and eagerness in expressing my thought and ideas. It is the semester break already. Everything happens really fast: registering courses, adaptation, test one,,test two, laboratory practicals every week, reports, assignments and final exams. Despite that all of these making me tired, however they gave me lots of experiences and indeed thought me on how to manage my “kesabaran dan ketabahan”. Jida always tells me that I am such a lucky person to be tested with His ujian-ujian which then made me went gobsmacked…\(^_^)/..i am such a lucky person!!..huhu..
feel so good to be back home!!Home sweeett homeee!!!my home is my heaven!! hurm,,still..1st semester in undergraduate period was really tough(ya right alya, baru first sem,tough konon..hahaha).By the way, my course is said to be one of the tough course among others..(erkk,,yeker?…im dead meat!)..
haha..among fellows of fostech, there are only 8 malay guys n 1 indian guy and the rest are dominated by chinese whilst among ladies, slightly balance between malays n non. Well whatever it is, it was a sweet memories. Though there were days that we went through were quite stressful and strain but we had fun \(^_^)/.the bonding of friends could never be compared to other stuff o change with money. abg muzani was right, life in college cannot be compared to life in school. yep3. It’s different. haha. hurm,for exam result…erkk,i think its better for me to not-to think bout it first. (cuz i know i didnt do so-well in previous tests…haha) let us enjoy our long term hhhhhoooooooooooooooolidaaaaaaaaay first!!
happy holidays my friends!

Fighting!!

Assalamualaikum wbt.
salam aidilfitri.maaf zahir batin
10 October 2008. 8.52am

It has been a long time since the last blog I wrote. Well,this 3rd sem has really keeping me busy with assignments ,presentations and examinations . However, I was really having fun with all the Asperian, up until now. The 3rd sem will end sooner or later and to think about that, I got nothing in my head-imagining about how’s life in the first year, how’s life without friends in Asper. One and a half year has given me a lot of sweet memories. In one and a half year, I have learned so many new things whether it‘s from lecturers or friends (usually from friends of course=P). One and a half year seem to pass really slowly ~ as I enjoyed every each of the second in Asasi. It’s really mean a lot to me, way meaningful than I had back in Seseri. (hahaha). So, i guess everyone in asasi has pass up their degree form yesterday. Everyone will go in different direction later on.Well,guys, have fun in gaining knowledge in your 1st year. Keep up the good work!Aja2 fighting!!!
Anyway, talking about schools- I’ve watched this one Japanese drama entitled “my boss my hero”. It was REALLY-SERIOUSLY the best Japanese drama. It was tacky and damn hilarious!!~ there was parts that I laughed a lot (sampai kat luar bilik pun boleh dengar,,hahahaha)-funny lol and some parts that really touching my heart..burst to tears some more~hukhuk. And I learned something for this story~ friends give a lot of impact in one’s life. Sad, happiness, excitement, confusing, feeling down, loathing…etc. Friend is the 2ndimportant person after family. Thanks a trillion to people who enroll as friends to me.
Huhu. Lets watch this drama over and over again.
The series is mainly about a 27 year old man named Makio Sakaki. His purpose is to become a successor after his father. However, he must pass high school first in order to prove himself worthy in the family for if he fails, his younger brother will take over, instead of him. Through the school years, he faces many obstacles such as righteousness, friendship, and perhaps even love.

3rd sem in Asper

4th July 2008
oh MY Lord“O my Dear Allah, make my love for You the most beloved thing to me, and my fear for You the most fearful thing to me, and remove from me all worldly needs and wants by instilling a passion for meeting You, and when You have given the people of the world the pleasures of their world, make the coolness of my eyes (pleasure) in worshipping You.” Ameen~

Assalamualaikum..wbt..

As the day goes by, its already the end of the semester’s break. Next week i’ll be going to kuliah like usual.Facing the same routines everyday~so boring, like what i have done for the last two semesters.The first semester was a little hard,maybe due to culture-shock and my premature-thinking.(haha). But then i learned that all of those things had effected my results. Even though my parents said it was ok, but still for me it was not. and so, during the second semester, i threw out some bad-behaviors for the sake of my studies, like texting people, going on shopping ,sleeping during the evening ,last-minute study..etc. i worked a little hard during this 2nd sem ,though that i had been part away from my beloved nisa-jida-yan. Even so, that had made me pushed myself to struggle even more to get good-grades and the most important :to make my parents proud of it. ,Alhamdulillah, i was quite satisfied for what i have achieved but that does not mean that its all-that. Mom and Dad told me to stay-maintain at the stage and do not fall. YES! i will mommy,daddy..^_^, indeed i’ll work 5 times harder..(because i’ the fifth in the family..hihi)Honestly,for me, it was quite-a little hard living through these days as daddy is working so-far-away, demi mencari rezeki untuk kami anak beranak. Dad has been transfered to UDM,Terengganu. Anyhow, thank to Allah up above that it was terengganu, our own sweet-home-town. The kampong where daddy grew up healthily and happily. Indeed, he was promoted to be the vice-dean in one of the faculty in that universiti. It was a relief to know that daddy is enjoying himself there after i went through his page. I felt really2 truly sorry for mom and dad that they have to be apart like this as for the sake of the family. (owh, i wish they do not have to separate like this…. how i wish…). Frankly, i burst to tears-a lot, whilst i was reading his page, i missed daddy very much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)Well, since he’s enjoying himself with his friends back in UDM, i am happy for him. and i constantly prayed that ALLAH will protect him from sins and dangers-may you always be blessed. Amin~
To one of my father’s friend : Dr Abdullah in UDM as well….please take a VERY GOOD CARE of my FATHER. I love him more than i love myself!.
MOM and DAD, i love both of you very much.even words could not describe how much i love both of you.

something to erase

19th July 2008
“Kenapa aku mendapat ujian seberat ini??”“Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannnya”-al-Baqarah:286

1.20am.
I was watching some Korean dramas in the middle of the night. While waiting for the video to buffering, my mind came across about something-if there was anything on youtube about my school-seseri. and so, I typed on the search- “seseri”. and surprisingly, there were a lot of them.One of them was made by my ex-batch mate. She was in the top-ranking class though. Its easy to say that she was excellent in everything, including sports and extra curriculum. The other videos were majority from the juniors, appreciating their life in Seseri as well.Well, I was wondering, why didn’t I have those feeling?-the feeling of fondness towards the school. To be honest, my school time, especially during the upper form in Seseri, I wasn’t really having a good-sweet time there. It was one of the worst memories I have ever had. And indirectly affected my study and my spm result. That’s why I had some regret ness about deciding to continue my study in Seseri one time ago, while I left my favourite school in Bangi. If only time can be turned back to the past. But it wont.Anyhow, I must not think this way towards the school. But I cant help it.Now that I already entering the college I felt relief that my school time is over. While most of the people say that their ‘school-hood’ were the greatest time ever-and I did not. I am so happy that I feel so ease-and-happy during college time. Yeay! I am grateful for what I have today.I went to bed afterward because it was 2 in the morning. It was kind of funny to say that I even had a dream about my school. In the dream, everything was turn out to be different from the reality. Well, I guess that’s why it has been called ‘dream’.
Ha~ having a laptop in the room its quite convenient, although the internet streaming is slightly slow sometimes because almost each of the room in the house having laptop. Haha. Sometimes we even named it as cyber café.“Sesungguhnya manusia yang merancang, Allah yang menentukan”…